So today ive decided to write in this color because it shows somewhat of my mood. to me red can mean love which i am in love. it can mean rage which i am deff in a state of right bout now. it can mean alotta things and it just describes me. i miss erynn i wish we were still hanging out all the time and yet i cant seem to tell her how i feel so if she reads this lol. i miss our friendship but i hate that once nick came around it seemed like you were ignoring me there were alotta days you didnt even tell me you were down and i coulda used someone to talk to.
depression everyone thinks they have it and i know i do i mean why else sit there and cry at night because of what people say or do. or the fact you cant find a job and you really want one. or the fact you feel like you lost someone important and now your hearts not in the right place. i know you were mad at me for halloween night but he offered and you shoulda told me hell right now me and her aint even talking. she will always be a back burner to me and you i mean look what weve been through and no im not in love with you im just saying lol.
on to other things. jobs im not getting right now because the world suxs like that and andrew my fiances brother will be home soon and i cant wait its been forever. randy is really excited he misses him alot and i can see why theyve been apart far to long.
wanna know a little secret? i like cheese lmao. dont ask i think imma get arieles on here so we can blog back and forth like we used to hell maybe even have erynnn join us i mean its been forever we need to just come back to tk and all meet up again.
i just noticed i use the word forever alot lol how stupid is that. my heads spinning and im shaking maybe the bc powder wasnt a good idea lmao. idk i needed to get rid of my headache and i did well at least till this bull started back up and now its all downhill again yayyy
oh and as for arkansas that happened for a whole week and i could not take it i mean the yelling everyday that would drive me insane and now im back in texas and loving life getting married soon and i couldnt be happier. most people are like you wont ever get out but i know one day deep in my heart i will get outta texas and travel the world randy for sure wouldnt not do it he wants to go to japan and i wanna go to russia so we have to study up on some of the languages hahaha...any comments let me know xoxo
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